Thoughts On My Senior Year of College
Wow I can’t even believe the title of this post! Since when am I a senior in college?
It is such a crazy feeling moving into my house for senior year, when it feels like just yesterday I was nervously moving into my freshman year dorm. The two were entirely different experiences and it makes me think about how far I’ve come in my college journey.
If I had to describe my freshman year move in in one word it would be nervous. I was so nervous to start college I laid in bed awake at night thinking about the unknown for weeks. I moved into my forced triple thinking, “How on Earth is this going to work?”. Three fashion majors in one super small space did not sound like a good idea to me and honestly it wasn’t. Freshman year was hard for me. I’m not good with change and everything was a change. Different friends, school, environment and so much more is all so hard to combat all at once. It was hard, but I figured it out. If you’re a freshman reading this, things are hard now, but you can do it.
My senior year move in was so different. This time around I wasn’t nervous, but so excited. I was moving into a beach house with my five best friends. I have my own room, get to cook my own food, and I am taking classes that I actually enjoy! Instead of balling when my parents left, I gave them hugs knowing that I would see them soon.
Similarly, getting asked about your major is different between your freshman and senior year. As a freshman, when you get asked your major it is still so knew to you. You might even not know what it is yet or end up changing it. The questioner will ask you about your classes (mostly gen eds at this point) where you are learning the basics. To give you some perspective, at this point in my college career I was learning how to design fashion, but not even designing fashion (lol).
But once you are a senior and an interrogator asks about your major, they cut right to the chase. “What do you plan to do with that?” they ask. Your heart races a million miles a minute because how are you supposed to know right now?? That’s a lot of pressure because there are a few things that you plan on doing, but plans don’t always work out. Here’s what I tell people: I am interested in working in sportswear, I think it would be really cool to work in merchandising and buying, I have my own fashion blog, so working public relations for a fashion company or writing for a fashion magazine would be perfect for me. But how am I supposed to know what jobs are going to be available in May when I graduate? Where do I want to live? What point am I going to be at in my life when I graduate?
This is all so scary to me right now and it reminds me of the girl I was on freshman move in. Why? Because yet again, graduating will be another big change in my life and like I said, I’m bad at change. And you know what? I am not the same girl I was during my freshman move in. That girl didn’t have the great friends that I have now, the life and work experience, the confidence to move to London where she knew no one, and most importantly: the drive I have now.
I may be nervous about graduating, what is to come in my future, the unknown. But here’s the thing: as a senior I have something in the back of my mind that I didn’t have when I was a freshman: drive. Throughout college I have developed the strongest drive. I will not take no for an answer and I will work as hard as I have to until the job is done and I reach my goals. Because of this, I know that even though I don’t know what my future holds, I have a bright one ahead of me because I am willing and able to work hard in order to get there.